unbelivable

2007-04-30T21:20:00.000+08:00

decided to change my blogging environment huh.
relink please:http://www.xanga.com/THEBELIEFS

2007-04-28T11:53:00.000+08:00

RED HOUSE WON!
red house like havent won for so many many years!
and it won this year!
clapclapclap.cheercheercheer.

was at yishun mrt yesterday and suddenly there was this pair of freaky hands that almost scared me to death.
like i was like thinking whats happening then i realise what happened.
it was yuling and kaya.
they totally freak me out ok.
had class breakfast yesterday at macs.
then i realise how auntie jolene was.
like she was afraid that her food wun be sent over so she went to ask then she requeued again so she took damn long.
then we were all late for maths.
poor ms rockey:/
maths lesson was fun,withh all those chips.
&cheryl had chicken hair yesterday, serious chicken hair.
then we had elit.
and ms grace tan told us how her husband behaved when there was a sale.
&iit was damn freakinng hilarious and we realised how auntie and uncle they were.
a perfect couple huhhs.
stood throughout the whole day yesterday:/
my legs almost died ok.
like first shift second shift then perimeter?(but karon was tougher?she had to walk around the school?)
but second shift was ok cos i had a companion panshin and we could at least talk and fidget?
&& we had a nice view of the cheer rountine from there((:
and i realise how screwed up the prize presentation was coos the results were different from those announced?
so it was like quite messy.
then we ate at macs.
like again:/
and panshin and sylvia Ostracize me:/
so i was like standing there and stone and thought of many things
many things that set me thinking.
i believe i can be a good counsellor ok.dontt ever demoralise me:/

2007-04-24T21:05:00.000+08:00

my life revolves around np.
everything is just np np.
like what clarissa says, i everyday only got np.
i am going to kill bcos of np:/

2007-04-22T09:12:00.000+08:00

i miss everything of annual parade.

2007-04-20T18:51:00.000+08:00

npap is just tomm:/
i will miss everything of it
-the rushing of time
-the cabbing
-the burgers
-the lot one
jiayous for it.
i am worried that the flag will drop>:/

2007-04-19T19:19:00.000+08:00

i could have killed you if you annoyed me.
sorries if i annoyed you today.
i will fail my maths test like shit.
i cant survive w/o my calculator.

2007-04-14T19:47:00.000+08:00

sorry squadmates,for being such a loser yesterday:/
like all the commands end on the wrong leg:/
but luckily, i have a so wonderful partner: WAITENG(:
i swear i could have just died on the spot without her.
i love waiteng so much(:
i think i dun want to be reserve after all the thinking
and i am persuaded by panshin that i can do it!
so GO GO GO JIAYIN(:

2007-04-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

i am like happy now
which is likee so rare cos i havent be happy for damn long:/
but now I AM HAPPY
i shall try to be happy
at least for today
since i am doing my "happy speech"

2007-04-08T15:19:00.000+08:00

i cried just now.
like for an hour.
and i was screaming and screaming.
like some mad woman.
i thought i would had killed myself with that knife.

2007-04-08T15:10:00.000+08:00

i swear i could have just killed anyone just now.
why is it only my fault and not HER fault?
is it only when i die then it will be HER fault?

2007-04-06T13:52:00.000+08:00

i swear my phone sucks.
it should have just went down the bin.
and get carried away by the rubbish collector.

2007-04-05T22:16:00.000+08:00

i think i am super lousy:/
i dun know like everything:/
i didnt even know why i am like so stupid:/
i should have been better off dead:/

2007-04-01T15:13:00.000+08:00

maybe one day i should just let go too.(like what yanlin wanted to)

2007-03-31T18:45:00.000+08:00

and thanks karon for your filter paper smiley face.

2007-03-27T18:28:00.000+08:00

how much blood do we have to lose if we want to die?

lif e is just a piece of shit.
i should have been dead.
there's nth worth for me to live on.://

2007-03-25T19:45:00.000+08:00

i wonder how long does it take to jump down from a high building?

2007-03-24T12:28:00.000+08:00

i suddenly have this weird thinking.
what if one day i just die in an accident or whatever.
will anyone even mourn for me?

2007-03-24T11:01:00.000+08:00

a random post.
realise how war is so damn freaking scary.i am glad that i am living is such a peaceful place.

2007-03-16T18:36:00.000+08:00

school is like starting soon.
in two days time:///
and i havent finish anything yet:/
how failure can i get?
and CYM is going to change the seating arrangement:///
i will miss everyone in the row://
all the talks and laughs and everything else
i just dont want school to start
school is just like a place where i await death
l1r5 is gonna kill me too://

SCHOOL IS JUST SO IRRITATING

JIAYIN JUST WANTS TO DIE.
WHO CAN SEND HER TO HER DEATH?

2007-03-11T19:45:00.000+08:00

the camp was like super super uber uber uber fun.
i <33333333 three faith to bits and pieces(((((((((((((;
we are like so high and everything during the camp.

day 1.
was the earliest to reach today at northpoint.
met lynn, kaya and huizhen then we cab to school.
after that we depart for the campsite.
had outdoor cooking and sarimbun hunt.
the noodles and hotdog for lunch and they seriously tasted like shit.
it wasnt even warm.
missed sarimbun hunt because had to go hta for npdp training.
actually called taxi for half an hour!
realise that npdp was quite fun.
so i dun wanna be a reserve.
must brush up my drills and work hurt to not get kicked out!
i was so pissed and annoyed by this person larh.
i was like move!move!move!
and he just stone there.
almost could had slap him and scream at him.
then we went back school and they were having dinner.
ate a fishball only cos i was like super full.
then we had song session.
it was like so fun and hilarious.
the trainers was like so comical etc.
then it was night hike.
it wasnt scary but it was all those screaming that make us feel scared.
had like ne lessons which was like dots...
then we had reflections.
had chocolate bun and my reflection was'i learnt how to cooperate with others'
then we went for showers.
shower outside and changed inside cos there was like not enough toilets.
it's actually quite fun to bath outside huh.
then it was lights off.
in the middle of the light, i suddenly wake up and call my sister to off the lights for me.
it's actually quite scary cos i wasnt even like dreaming or sth.

day 2.
i was definitely an alarm clock today.
woke up like automatically myself.
had nasi lemak as breakfast and it was quite nice but the milo was so diluteed:/
then we had team building.
had to sit on this thing andmove without standing according to our name.
i was like so uselss, i cant even shift when it was like so easy to others.
i should have just died you know and not cry.
at least i will not be wasting others' time.
then we had challenge valley.
only went for the last station which was like milo pond.
i was like so scared when sliding down.
i am just so useless i cant even stand properly at the pond when it was like so shallow.
STUPID USELESS JIAYIN.
then we had rafting.
i ant even tie a clove hith properly.
useless me.
but sailing in the sea was fun(((:
then we had lunch.
after that was kayaking.
even though it was only kayaking for a while, i feel accomplished.
cos it was only then i was useful and taught cheryl how to hold the paddle properly:DDD
then it was rock wall.
everyone climb so high besides me.
i gave up half way through.
and i just cant push myself up.
i have weak muscles.
SUPER SUPER LOUSY JIAYIN.
then it was abseiling.
didnt do that station cos it looked super scary and the instructor was super fierce.
however,i had fun throwing stones and competing who can throw further and having stone rain with karon.:DDDDDD
then we had dinner followed by campfire.
campfire was fun and i cheered until i had no voice.
the trainers was like pouring water over each other and they continued their jap act from day 1.
then we had shower.
chiong to the bathrooom so i got to bath in the toiletss:DDDDD
i was bathing super fast lorh.
i can bath fast.
YAY.JIAYIN IS USEFUL FINALLY.
then it was night reflections.
act one and a half curry puff cos it was damn nice.
and i realise how our lame our trainer can be and how cold his jokes was.
then we went to sleep.
AND SYLVIA, I WASNTT MOLESTING YOU KAY.
MAYBE I WAS JUST LIKE DREAMING THAT I WAS FIGHTING WITH SOMEONE SO I KEEP HTTING YOU.(i think i nvr dream)

day 3.
it was super duper cold today.
the fan was at speed three?
had beehon for breakfast and it was nice.
the milo was nicer too cos at least it was sweet.
then we clean the basins and the pick up rubbish at the dining hall.
the we had crc.
was so damn freaking useless.
only need to balance myself and walk throught yet i was screaming like mad and trembling with fear.
ppl on the highest one didnt scream as much as i do
didnt dare to do the other staions cos i think i will just drop off and die:///
then it was archery.
lousy jiayin only got one arrow shoot at the black board.
bad aiming skills huh.
then had chicken rice for lunch which was like quite nice.
then area cleaning was spent walking around looking for lost and found items.
then it was evaluation.
we were like complaining that ben keep abandoning us.
and he was like stomping his feet and telling us his reasons??
funny huh.
and i realise that he like to touch his heart and say he;s heartbroken etc.
just like karon who like to always say you hurt my self esteem.
then it was prize presentation.
we were like "cheryl sexy mama and ben chicken neh neh pok"
and we were like cheering while the other ppl was like silence.
so embarrassing.
after went back to school.
on the bus, ppl were like crying and singing,
PPL, DUN CRY.

I <333333333333333333333333333333333 THREE FAITH LOADS!

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2007-02-22T20:28:00.000+08:00

I ALMOST GOT KNOCK DOWN BY BIKE YESTERDAY!
IT WAS LIKE I STOPPED AT THE CORRECT MOMENT!
THAT PERSON DUN HAVE BELL HUH!

school started with bad courssework:/
lynn was so much clever than me.
she can figure out formula unlike me who was so stupid!!:/
and she is like addicted to mei tian.
and she stick the paper into the middle.
cos she say ppl wun dare to take off the paper if it belongs to me.
i am fierce huh lynn.
har!i shall be fierce to you everyday!

campcraft test was like shit!
the stupid twiine was like snapping aand snapping!
and i was like fuck and tama ing?
so our tent collapse.
lesson learnt: buy better grade twine next time.
backwoodsman was good.
with nice invigilator and partner.
at least my partner is not scared of soil and dig well?
was like a barbarian walking into the popular.
like muddy slacks and dirty np shirt.
was searching for the cheapest red and black paper for damn long.
but neverthelesss,WONDERFUL JIAYIN GOT EVERYTHING DONE.

ilovejiayinsomuch.((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((:

get well soon beat!
stop having breathing difficulties!
take in deep deep breaths!
breathe in!breathe out!

2007-02-21T20:25:00.000+08:00

i am stinking now.
like havent bath yet:/
i am gonna fail my physics test.:/
and stupid card:/
RAHHH!RAHH!RAHH!
I AM LIKE SWEARING EVERY HOUR.
*swears swears*
AND KARON YOU ARENT' USELESS.
YOU ARE LIKE SO WONDERFUL!
LOVE YOU TO BITS AND PIECES!

2007-02-17T11:53:00.000+08:00

super pms this few days.
cant do log on thursday so was like dammn annoyed.
think my face was black throughout the day.
wore full u for nth huh.
and it was made to see that it was our fault.
what the heck.
like pls, do we look like we like to wear full u?
campcraft test yesterday.
i will still failed it.
like my first aid was a pile of shit.
i cant do anything.

i am annoyed by myself:/
my stupidness and foolishness:/
luckily i didnt do things i will regret for life:/

2007-02-11T18:55:00.000+08:00

today was fun with all the cookie baking for v day.
and basketball was fun(:
and i cant dribble the ball lyk clockwisely?
i was screaming like mad but it was just super fun.
billard was fun too but i just cant play.
too lousy heh.

TOMMORROW IS JUST GOING TO BE A SUPER SUPER SUPER BIG BIG BIG BIG DAY!

2007-02-06T19:31:00.000+08:00

i am so lousy.
i cant even think of souveiner and stupid card.
I AM LOUSY.

2007-02-04T15:42:00.000+08:00

i am going to die soon:/
soon.it's just today or tomm.

2007-02-03T10:56:00.000+08:00

YAY.i finally passed third class.
chemistry is bad for me.careless for the stupid chlorine atom.suppose to have three shells but i only have two.);
lousy loss of marks.
so useless of me.:/
i cant cheer ppl up.
lousy me.
nvm.9 more days to twelve february!

2007-01-30T18:23:00.000+08:00

13 days to 12 february!

2007-01-30T18:18:00.000+08:00

super cold today,shall bring jacket tomm.
bad sore throat and i am lyk still eating tidbits all those stuff.
got quite lousy for maths.
shall strive harder tomm(:
beat's getting me sweets and i am getting her a letter(:
i get damn annoyed during english lessons.):
was super tired and annoyed during recess.think i was pms-ing.
i am going to die tomm with morning jog.pray that i dun lose my voice and dun get muscle aches.

2007-01-25T16:57:00.000+08:00

super annoyed today.
which law indicate that that particular bus seat must be for ppl who are carrying things?
hello.even if it' so i do not have to give you the seat larh.
you weren't carrying anything.
and YOU ARE NOT AN ELDERLY.
so stop all you idiotic comments.
to : whoever i am referring to
say something doesnt means say"something" and i seriously dun find it funny.

it's super freaky to walk in the morning after all the ghost stories:/
i was like omg.what if sth suddenly pop out.so i wa like xin jin dan tiao.
maths test was horrible.so i will fail it horribly:/
that's not sth good.
i am addicted to comics now!

2007-01-21T17:51:00.000+08:00

3rd class drills test on friday was bad.
i think i am going to flunk it again.hope that i dun.
i seriously dun mind failing on the spot.
pls, i dun want to retake again.

I AM ACTING AS JACK, the VIOLENT one.THAT SO SUIT ME(: